Emotional Rollercoaster

Alone

In the middle of a crowded room

Silent voices scream for recognition

Fear

Twists guts into compressed clay

Paralyzing limbs, numbing throats

Degradation

Fills the ears of the emotionally injured

Ruining scarce moments of hard-fought joy

Depression

Carries sinking hearts into oblivion

Erasing memories of happiness felt

Hands

Reach out, begging for salvation

Yearning for one sign of love

Answers

Arrive in rain-soaked clouds

Pouring down tears of understanding

Compassion

Clears the night of unmasked terrors

Awakening remnants of esteem, long forgotten

Joy

Blooms in multi-colored bursts of words

Spoken, thoughts shared, kindnesses felt

Light

Seeps into crevices of the heart

Obliterating shards of self-doubt

Happiness

Explodes in multicolored bursts

Opening souls to welcoming voices

Surrounded

Encased

Enfolded

Alone no more

Our Life Stories

all of life is a series of

nonstories

the might-have-beens

the almost becames

the things we dreamt of

doing

but never did

the wishes unfulfilled

presents never delivered

or received

places never visited

near-misses

chance occurrences

that developed into nothing

the left-behinds

and

soon-to-be forgottens

all stories untold

mysteries locked

romances closeted

things never experienced

foods never tasted

but secretly yearned for

nonstories frozen in place

and time

with no characters to lament

plots stagnant

themes dragging behind

do we obsess

over the lost stories

and live life in a

vacuum?

of course, not

we constantly create

our personal life stories

our dreams springing to

a life lived luxuriously

laughing joyously

over the endless

possibilities

Don’t Drip on Me

I don’t want your blood

Dripping over my head

Not literally or symbolically

Your thoughts and fears,

Your inhibitions and philosophies

Would infiltrate my defenses

So keep it to yourself

I don’t want your tears

Dripping over my head

Not one salty drop

Polluting my ducts, my eyes,

My heart my very being.

That sadness is contagion,

An invisible hammer to crush

My defenses

So keep them to yourself.

I don’t want your beliefs

Dripping over my head

Uninvited misconceptions

Invading my perceptions

That I’ve spent years

Rehoming as I take in

Information to be analyzed.

So keep them to yourself.

Drip-dripping all over me

No blood, no tears, no beliefs.

Uninvited, unwanted

Invaders of my very self.

No gushes, no rivulets, no streams

Dripping over me.

So keep them to yourself.

Frustration over Repetition

            I hate dealing with corporate hacks. I understand, that for consistency, the agents must work from a given script. I understand that they cannot deviate from that script, not even one word. But that doesn’t make it right nor does it help the customer.

            I recently misplaced a credit card that I use on a regular basis. I have looked everywhere but cannot find it. Today I gave up the search and called the help number. The first agent was hard to understand due to his accent. He also spoke in a monotone, repeating the same information, over and over. He couldn’t verify either of my phone numbers because they “are not in the system.”

            Of course they’re not in the system because I never gave them to the card holder! All they had to do was call….they’d get me. But, no, they can’t do that.

            Instead I have to send them a copy of my driver’s license. I refused. Hung up.

            I tried working with the store’s customer service, but they can’t do anything either.

            Back to the bank. This agent was positive, upbeat, and claimed he could help. But then he transferred me to an agent who repeated the same phrases over and over and refused to deviate even when I cited her responses before she could read them! Four different times!

            I still have accomplished nothing. I have no “old” card, but apparently they will issue me a new card only once I email that driver’s license, front and rear.

            When did customer service become so difficult?

            Before I got married I worked at a now bankrupt furniture store. In customer service! I wasn’t suited for the job, but it was a job when I desperately needed one.

            The phone rang constantly, people inquiring about their orders or when an order would be delivered. Those were the easy calls.

            I discovered that there are miserable people who love nothing more than to spew their misery all over the world. They’d call angry, determined to cause a fight. They wouldn’t calm down, even though I spoke in a calming voice. They wanted what they wanted and wouldn’t stop until they were satisfied.

            A scratch on a leg meant a new piece of furniture. An unzipped cushion? Yes, a new one even though all they had to do was zip it up!

            What I had to do, no matter the temperament of the customer, was to remain calm.

            It was hard as I have little patience for rudeness, but in order to keep my position, I complied.

            After months of this, I request a transfer to another position and was granted my wish.

            Today’s “agents” don’t seem  to understand that a satisfied customer is one who will continue shopping at the store. Perhaps they are hired to be indifferent. Perhaps their training is so limited that they aren’t given permission to think. Perhaps their temperament tends toward rigidity.

            I’m not sure. But what should be a position to help customers reach satisfaction, the job seems to be annoy the heck out of anyone who dares raise a concern!